Is there an "a-ha" solution to life?

I've been half working on this project at my job. It wasn't something assigned from our boss, nor really anything that we think will actually change strategic decisions... but still I spent a few hours on friday staring at numbers. I thought that the data would speak to me; that these seemingly random statistics, dollars and percentages would tell me answers when I didn't even know what question was being asked. They are good numbers and even seem "right" but they aren't anything but rows and columns in an excel spreadsheet. How can I take them to the next level? Can I make a 43 x 12 grid something that says "yes" or "no"?

I'm kind of feeling that way right now in general.

I have these pieces of work, friends, guys, and my days floating in front and behind me and I don't know what they all mean. I can put them in rows and columns of running times and conversations of topics and hours in front of the tv and jokes and stories, but I can't make them tell me what I should do.

My boss is leaving because the job is too stressful and not worth it. I go out 2-3 nights a week with a bunch of friends and just kind of end up a little hungover in the morning. I haven't dated a guy since I've been in Utah. What are these things saying? Something? Nothing? Everything?

Dude, I'm worthless at the blog. I think it stems from writing emails all day, everyday about work to either vendors, other employees, or staff. Something about sitting in front of a computer for 8-9 hours means you have little to no interest in dispersing thoughts after that point. That and no one reads this thing anyway, so its more of a cartharsis rather than a glimpse into my life. I'm going to try to bring it back to reality though, and see what I can do to make it routine again.

I could start to describe that I've been working a bunch at backcountry , skiing even more at the canyons and other places in UT. I could explain that I'm trying a social experiment with facebook and still living in park city. Or I could expound on the interesting changes occuring with my family, but I can't formulate my thoughts yet, so thats going to have to be a future post. Anyway, I'm just going to watch my movie and think some more... I'll update this better later.