so... today kind of went for good to bad and then probably back to good again, but its weird, and i'm weird... etc.
it started off ok, i guess... i'm already for some reason emotional and confused, but today it came to fruition and i got mean and vindictive for no particular reason at all... well no real reason.

i had to work in base today becuase i had a phone interview at 330... all i did all day was glue little sheets of paper to big sheets of paper. it was pretty boring.

the interview went ok... it was with some random-ass recruitment agency, so i think it was for enterprise-rent-a-car or something... nothing that iw oudl actually do in my life, but it was a good experience to interview with someone etc...

at dinner i was trying to talkt o gloria about the thing and no one was lettign me speak and it finally just got to the point where i got angry... and i just slouched in my chair and really didn't want to be around anyone anymore...

i kind of took ryan and matts keys then and left... they were pissed that they couldn't drive there car and i was just pissed... i ended up crying abotu how they just get on my nerves and everyone gets on my nerves and i don't knwo why i'm picked on so much...

ryan was pretty smart about the whole thing... he explained to me kind of how what i do has kind of creted a situation that provokes the excessive sarcasm and meaner-type comments that have finally taken their toll... it kind of goes back to soemthing that i have always know, but never really confronted and i'm amazed and surprised that he was able to read me as well as he could... (man i'm glad no one really reads this but me...) i'm super-critical... i have no idea where it came from, but its always been there... with my parents, my sisters, and pretty m uch all of my friends... i don't mean for comments to come out that way, but when i give my opinion it comes out slightly more demanding than it does in my head.... maybe some peopel are more sensitive than i expect them to be, but maybe i just dont totally think abo0tu what i'm saying.... and its smoehting that i guess i'm goign to have to be mroe aware about... like my 'like' usage and unusual affinity for ellisses... oopss there they were again... ... ...

bakc on the positive side of things... i watched a really stupid movie and we had a snowball fight! cuase there was SNOW!!! yeah!