so this morning has been one of those rough ones...

i called my mom and dad this morning to let them know that there hasn't been that much snow here, etc. but then we talked, inevitably, about the job search and what my plans are for post-kanik. i don't really want to go home. chicago is a nice city, but i don't know anyone there, and... i'm kind of, well, happy here, right?

but there is this whole 7 week between contract things that i don't knwo what to do with. and mybe that time is just saying that i should move on. out of cimarron, into the "real world" ... out of the wild. maybe i shold move to Denver or something and get an apartment i'll be in a city that i wouldn't mind being in, potentially doing something that i kind of want to do... but will i find something? or will i settle?

i could maybe just stay in cimarron... but then, i'm not moving forward AT ALL. i'm comfortable ere, but will i be too comfortable... i have a contract for the summer, and it would be a blast. a great time... its so pretty here, and why do i have to grow up... i'm only 23. i'm still in my 'free' section before i have to apply for grad school and everything... but i don't know.

i just really don't know.